A we thought it couldn't get any worse

Holy hell people! I totally thought I was doing great and that things were finally going to start going my way and then...WHAM!!! I am hit with strep throat. What the heck is going on here? Do I really have to get sick that much? I need a vacation from sickness so I can get some work done on my body. It is in serious need of some tough love at the gym. I am starting to feel "squishy".

So, I got a shot of antibiotics in my butt and hopefully by Monday I will be ready to jump back into the workout routine I had going. Sorry there is nothing more inspiring or provoking to report. But, overall things are good and I am happy. That is good news.

I'm here...

But I'm not great. I gotta tell you guys, I really hate myself right now. I can't seem to get anything going. I worked out twice this last week, but that is just about it. I didn't eat great, I didn't take my vitamins or drink a lot of water. I am just really struggling and I hate it. It is so hard for me to stay focused and motivated. I know all of the tricks and ideas on how to stay motivated, but it doesn't matter. I just can't do it. I feel like giving up. It really hurts.

Yesterday I had Jason take a picture of me at our Football Kickoff Party, and I was crushed when I saw it. I look huge and I feel so ugly. I just feel like crying.

Pic of the day... Hudson and I at the USC Football Party yesterday. I love this little guy!

Last week

Not the best week in my life as far as health and nutrition go, but not awful either. Bad news is I didn't work out at all because I was sick AGAIN. Good news is I am down to 151.4 as of Sunday, which means I have officially lost my first 5lbs. This means I can reward myself with a pedicure. YAY!!!

I'w not feeling particularly motivated this week. I feel tired and so over the constant battle, BUT I went to my friend's blog and she had just posted a quote that really hit me hard. Thank you Lisa for your inspiration.

"Run when you can,
walk if you have to,
crawl if you must,
just never give up!"

That pretty much sums up what I am feeling right now. I just get to realize that I am not always going to go at the same pace, but as long as I am working (even in little ways) towards my goal, I am going to be just fine.

All for now, take care everyone.

Another week down...

and down another 2lbs. I am not sure how this happened since I have been sitting on my butt for days due to this retarded cold. Not to mention I ate fair food all week long (sooooo good!). BUT, I'm not complaining. I will just consider it a gift from the Gods!

Not a lot else to report. I was going to start this new 12 week program with Jason today, but I have been so sick and coughing non-stop, I just don't think it is going to happen. I don't know, we'll see.

Pic of the day: Jason and I at the parade last week. It was really warm and I was long-arming it to get us both in the shot. I sure do love that man.

Aye Aye Aye

Well things were going well at the beginning of the week. I had Jason going to the gym with me, I was eating healthier, feeling good about my success the week before and BAM... I got a cold! What the hell people!?! I can't keep myself healthy if my life depends on it. This is so retarded I can barely stand it. I am so mad at myself for getting sick so easily. So my weighin is tomorrow and I am not expecting great results, but I can always dream, right?

Pic of the day: me and my kids playing around with my Photo Booth application on my computer.

Buddies and Goodies

I have some great news! I have recruited my husband to come work out at the gym with me. I took him with me today so he could just take a look around and see if it was something he wanted to da and he ended up doing a really hard workout! I think he is hooked. We are going to be the sexiest couple in Burley come this fall. Watch out Burley cuz we are raring and ready to go!

Other good news: I weighed myself today (I forgot to do it yesterday) and I am down to 153.6. That is pretty damn good I have to say. Now is the real test! WEEK 2!!!

I will post more updates and any new tips I learn this week as I go along.

Pic of the day: Me about a week and a half ago at the cast party for the musical Jason and I just finished. Not too shabby. At least I don't looc at it and say to myself, "I look so fat"! (This is a MAJOR feat for me).

The past couple days

Goods:

• been working out every day
• cut back on my sugar intake a bit
• been more active
• drank lots of water

Bads:

• still eating quite a bit more sugar than I would like
• eating too late at night
• not eating a good enough breakfast

Overall not too shabby. I weighed myself today. It isn't my weigh in day, but I just had to do it, I couldn't resist. I am down to 153.2 That is a loss so far this week of 3.2 lbs. I know some of it is water, but it is encouraging still the same. I am really looking forward to my first 5lbs lost and being able to get a pedicure!